Memang Bukan Buat Kamu

We are young and know nothing about love, they said.

Replaying all the sad songs,

and read those typical romance stories.

We care about no one, they said.

We're happy then we scream,

like it's only us that can hear.

We are young, and it's too hard for us to understand

how and why things could happen, they said.

...

So here, let us tell you a little secret;

The only thing that we know for sure is,

We never give a damn about this.

-Rainy Season, 3 March, 18:20

;-;-;-;-;-;-;-;-;-;-;-;-;-;-;-;-;-;-;-;-;-;-;-;-;-;-;-;-;-;-;-;-;-;-;-;-;-;-;-;-;-;-;-;-;-;-;-;-;-;-;-;-;-;-;-;;-;-;-;-;-;-;-;-;-;

Pernah ga sih, lo pengeeeen banget sesuatu? Dan untuk ngedapetin sesuatu itu, lo bekerja dengan sangat-sangat keras, ga kenal lelah, ga peduli mau ada El Nino atau La Nina, ga peduli mau ada kepala sekolah baru, you worked your ass off.

And everyone around you seems like sangat men-support lo dengan keinginan lo itu. Then when you feel like you almost reach what you want, seluruh semesta kayak bekerja sama buat menghalangi lo, and you can't do anything about it.

Ibaratkan kayak lo ngeliat siomay di restoran, dan lo pengen-pengen-pengen banget siomay itu. Dan semua orang kayak ngomong "Iya, siomay itu enak banget" atau "Sumpah, itu siomay paling enak se-Jakarta". Trus lo ngumpulin uang buat beli siomay itu, and BAM, siomaynya ga halal. Which is mau seenak apapun siomay itu, mau seberapa banyak uang lo, lo tetep gabisa makan siomay itu, ya karena it's not for you.

Duh, syalan jadi pengen siomay.

Tapi serius, right now, I'm writing this with all of the pieces of my broken heart. Sedih banget deh, parah. Sampe rasanya kalo ada orang yang bilang "Udah, gapapa" mau gue potong-potong trus gue jadiin siomay.

Perasaan baru aja seneng, baru aja move on, baru aja tebar-tebar modus, udah gagal. Mungkin ini pertanda dari semesta kalo perjalanan gue buat mencari pencerahan cinta harus ditunda sampe lulus SMA

Ude gitu aesi

Ohiya, BTW awal Januari, Bu Hesti ngasih tugas bikin sosio drama and it was fun! Nanti deh gue ceritain setelah fase galau gue abis.

-xxx

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